This was the scariest part of my entire pregnancy. I didn't want to tell my parents. I knew they would be disappointed in me. I didn't want them to think I wouldn't finish school and that I had ruined my whole life. (A baby made my life so much better.)* My family has had people become pregnant out of wedlock before, but not my boyfriend's family. And on top of that his father is a pastor. Hence why this was the scariest part of my pregnancy.
March 23, 2013 was the day I couldn't hide it from my parents any longer. My boyfriend and I were on Spring Break, and this was the last day before we headed back to school that evening. I woke up and I texted him and said, "I have to tell them." He didn't want me too because he knew my parents would want his parents to know, and he wasn't ready to tell them. I couldn't wait. I had to tell mine. I waited until my dad took my brother and sister to Sunday school, and I went out of my bedroom and told my mother. She started crying. I didn't want them to be mad or upset, but I knew they would. I can't remember exactly everything she said, but it was something about I basically messed up my life.
Now any parent's first reaction is something a long these lines. I don't know any parent who would be happy that their nineteen year old daughter is pregnant her freshman year of college. My mom and dad are super supportive of me now that they see having a child hasn't stopped me from doing anything and everything I want and need too.
My dad came home from taking my siblings to Sunday school, and when I told him he was just shocked. No good news and no bad news. The awkward silence was the worst. I didn't know what to say. He didn't know what to say. There wasn't anything that was going to make the situation easier. It was stagnant. He finally said he supported me and wanted the best for me. It would be hard but he wanted me to stay in school.
As for Bill's parents, that was a whole different story. They were as supportive as they could be but not much. His dad was worried about his reputation as the pastor. He didn't want his son to have a child out of wedlock. (Of course, what pastor or parent wants that). It happened and to this day they still aren't over it. It's not an easy thing, but at some point you've got to move on and embrace what God has given you. Hopefully someday.
Now that we told our parents, we had to start planning for the future...what that was, we had no idea.
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